Hm? What is it this time?

You know... right now, I'm worried. Very worried. Why, you ask? Well, look around you. Look at the rest of the world. Open a newspaper and all you'll see if death and destruction. What happened to happy declarations of the triumphs of humanity? What happened to shedding light on people who've done their best to make the world a better place? What gets more publicity, mass destruction, or aid missions?

Destruction, of course.

No one wants to hear what people are doing to help others. All they want to do is to read about the horrible things happening to humans in this day and age. All they want to do is to read, weep, mourn, hold candlelight vigils, then go home feeling like they've accomplished something. Yes, you can offer flowers as tributes, yes, you can write lengthy speeches about what's wrong in the world. But do those actions change anything? Will it help, if you hold a candlelight vigil and wish with all your heart that things in the world would improve?

It doesn't help. At all.

Why waste time talking, and wishing, when you CAN do something to change it? Every person has the power to change the world, not just with an iron will, or a fiery heart, or a brilliant mind... it takes all of those to change the world. Anyone can change the world. Anyone. It doesn't just take money and great influence to help. We 'little people' are the ones who have the real power. To me, modern heroism isn't about a single person making gargantuan changes. In my opinion, it takes the combined will and strength of many people to bring about an act of heroism. Also, today, it's not about the glory anymore. People don't help others(sincerely, at least) for glory. People help others for the sake of helping. There are heroes everywhere - startlingly ordinary ones - and because of the fact that such heroic acts remain drowned out among so many other 'significant events', no one wants to be an ordinary hero. No one has faith anymore, because what good is there to doing good if no one notices, and no one steps forward to grab the baton that is passed on to them? Why do something if it's viewed as a futile effort?

Because of that, we're all reduced to simply wishing, hoping, and praying. Our voices are reduced to mere whispers, and we depend on our leaders to amplify them. That is why it is so important that we choose the correct leaders, people with the values, skills, and vision to tackle the problems of the world. But somehow... the wrong people are still chosen. 'Why?' I wonder. I wonder why despite the fact that these 'wrong' leaders are obviously misguided and narrow-minded, they are still chosen to represent the collective will of a nation. Why? What is it that they're teaching in the various societies on the face of the planet that even the wrong people come into power?

In my opinion... it's insecurity.

Everyone has insecurities. You. Me. EVERYONE. If you think that manipulating people is hard, think again. It's really easy to be a puppeteer, to tug upon the strings of a person's insecurities. It's easy to create rousing speeches that bring out the insecurities within each and every single one of us, and then go on to ensure that people believe in them. It's a very subtle way of manipulation. Words are powerful. A picture is worth a thousand words, but a single word can inspire a thousand pictures. 'Terrorism'. Flashes of people dying, women crying, handicapped children, dead fathers, mothers, siblings, relatives, friends. The list goes on. See how easy it is to bring out insecurities? Manipulation isn't an artform anymore, it's a way of life.

Oh, and there's another issue I wish to mention here.

Nowadays... the youth seem to be under attack. Everywhere we go, we find adults who say that teenagers are causing so much trouble.. teenagers are irresponsible... teenagers are the cause of many social ills...

Well, excuse me, but some of you need to take a step back and see how well YOU'RE running the world. Oh, I see death and destruction here, hunger there, silly political issues, and so much more.

Really, whoever thought that being an adult automatically makes you wise, mature, responsible, and all-knowing, really needs a large slap from reality and a big punch on the nose too. I really, really, really can't stand 'adults' who claim that we teenagers need to be told how to behave. I really hate ageism. As far as I can tell not many adults believe that hey, we teenagers can actually have good ideas and good opinions. Really, I should know the best way to live my own life, right? Tell me how is it that you supposedly know what's best for me when in fact you can't even dive into my mind to see what's REALLY best for me, as opposed to just claiming that you know what's best for me. I do know that most adults are quite sensible, but please, don't think that because adults are (usually) sensible, then hey, teenagers are nonsensical by default. After all, we do have minds, you know. And I'm not afraid to use it.

I've lost faith in many, many 'adults' because of what's happening in the world. How can I look up to you when I can't find it in myself to agree with the various bad - not wrong - decisions that you make? I wish that they'd just stuff their egos and narrow-mindedness up their asses - from which the sun shines out of, by the way - and admit that hey, some of us teenagers really can make good, sensible decisions, and that we should be given a chance to help dictate what goes on in a country's administration. All these youth programmes are planned by balding, middle-aged adults who know nothing of the problems we go through. Well, they think they know anyway. Of course, as always, they really don't know. If I were to be put in a position where I can really say what's on my mind, and to tell them what they really need to hear, I will make sure that everything comes out unfiltered. I'll make sure that I tell them everything that matters. After all, we are the future leaders of the world, right? So why alienate us? *sigh*

I really wish that things would change.

The way things are going now... no wonder I've lost my faith in humanity.

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I am so bloody tired. Will update some other time when my head doesn't feel like it's going to explode.

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Oh, just some things...

You know what? Right now, what I really need.. is a trip to some beautiful resort somewhere. What I need is time to laze around, time to finish reading the novels I have, and time to just sit down and enjoy the music of life... the music which stems from everywhere around us. The almost unnoticable breeze in your ears. The sound of my air-conditioner. At a beach, it would be the sound of friction between grains of sand. The strong yet inobstrusive sounds of the waves. The wind flowing through leaves and blades of grass. The swaying and rustling of leaves. EVERYTHING.

What I don't need is these stupid exams which were supposedly created for the purpose of giving us a better understanding about the subjects we've learned, and to test our abilities in those subjects.

What a load of bullshit.

The only reason why we have so many exams papers for each subject is because the people in charge of our 'education' would rather add useless things in each subject to justify their position at the top, almost as if what they've done will reaffirm their position as the people in charge, rather than admit the fact that the system now has so many problems that they should fix. There are so many problems and discrepancies, not to mention various examples of flawed logic, in each subject that the amount is enough to fill up a large island and turn it into a third world country. They think that because they're doing 'something' to 'help us', they are justifying themselves being in that position to make decisions. They don't want to do something new or innovative, they want to do what's safe, and ensures that they have a job at the end of the day. It's not about us, it's not about what we need or want, but it's about what they want, what they think we need, and what they think our country needs.

We don't need to learn Jawi, we don't need to have so many Malay Language periods that the other subjects are left out in the cold, we don't need to memorize every damn detail of every damn experiment for science subjects because what's important is the concept of each experiment, and only the concept, and to have to memorize all these useless bits(or loads) of info is in fact beyond our level. What we don't need is the stupid people in charge telling us that they know what's best for us, because some of us actually use our brains and can actually decide what's good or bad for us.

As I've mentioned before somewhere, I don't need to get cancer to realize that smoking is bad, I don't need to get infected by an STD(sexually transmitted disease) to realize that premarital sex isn't good, and I don't need to have my life crash around me by being addicted to drugs to realize that drugs(when misused) are horrible. I have a mind. I actually use it. Although, I can't say the same for the people who make our everyday lives harder. I just don't see any logical reason for some of the things they come up with. They're absurd. Life is absurd enough already, so I'm not sure why they're just adding to the absurdity.

I seriously do not like these adults who are supposedly wiser than me telling me that they know what's best for me, and that we shouldn't question the decisions that they make. Malaysian leaders promote an open-minded way of thinking, but they need to learn how to practice what they preach. The 'adults' expect us young people - the youth, the so-called leaders of the future - to just accept the decisions that they make, and not to question the reasoning behind each decision. Isn't this somewhat like a dictatorship, where the people are not allowed to question the people above them? Well, it's dictatorship on a smaller scale anyway.

You know what? One of these days I'm gonna throw the idea of being a doctor out the window because I've been completely discouraged by the Malaysian education system, and I'll become an English professor or a writer instead. Language is more my forte, anyway. I.. just don't want to have to go through scientific crap ever again. Maybe in another life, away from Malaysia, I might've enjoyed the joys of science, but at the moment I can honestly say that I hate science due to the crap I've had to crawl through in Malaysian schools. A word of advice: do not ever send your kids to a Malaysian public school, because of the amount of sheer crap in it. A walk through a minefield in complete darkness with bombs and shrapnel flying all around you during a thunderstorm with a hurricane approaching would be more productive than learning the crap that we have to do for the sake of 'being successful', 'being a good student', and 'passing our exams with flying colours'.

It's not about our education anymore. Right now, it's about examinations. That's it. We're learning for the sake of getting A's in examinations.

Stupid ageists ruling us.

Die, ageists. >:(

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