A New Day

I don't want it to be tomorrow, ever.

They say that a new day is a new beginning.

Pfft, I beg to differ.

I will have the same problems, worries, and issues to deal with tomorrow. And the same feelings - the same fucking feelings that I wish would go away.

Sigh. A new day, a new adventure. Adventure indeed. Too much, I think.

But hey - I've been feeling a bit better recently. Not too much better, but enough that I don't wallow in self-pity all the time anymore.

Now, it's only half the time. ;)

Is that an improvement? I suppose it is. Better than nothing, at the very least.

So hey, here's to a new day, everyday, every month, every year from now on. Time may be the greatest cure, but I sure wish it would cure faster.

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Without You - Rent, sung by the characters Roger and Mimi

[Mimi]
Without you, the ground thaws, the rain falls, the grass grows.
Without you, the seeds root, the flowers bloom, the children play.
The stars gleam, the poets dream, the eagles fly, without you.
The earth turns, the sun burns, but I die, without you.
Without you, the breeze warms, the girl smiles, the cloud moves.
Without you, the tides change, the boys run, the oceans crash.
The crowds roar, the days soar, the babies cry, without you.
The moon glows, the river flows, but I die, without you.

[Mimi and Roger]
The world revives, colors renew, but I know blue,
only blue, lonely blue, within me, blue.

[Mimi]
Without you.
Without you the hand gropes, the ear hears, the pulse beats.

[Roger]
Without you, the eyes gaze, the legs walk, the lungs breathe.

[Roger]
The mind churns!

[Mimi]
The mind churns!

[Roger]
The heart yearns!

[Mimi]
The heart yearns!

[BOTH]
The tears dry, without you. Life goes on, but I’m gone.

[Both]
Cause I die, without you.

[Roger]
Without you.

[BOTH]
Without you

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Song of the moment ;)

I like the perspective. Life goes on, but I die anyway.

Without you, I die. Everything's okay with the rest of the world, but I die.

Love the perspective.

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Once you've hit sky high, the only way to go is down

I am exhausted.

Emotionally.

Not physically or mentally.

Spiritually?

I need to remember how to keep going on.

Just like I did, the first time it happened.

But I'll just lay here, for now.

While I wait for this feeling to pass.

Not that it will. Not anytime soon. Not soon enough.

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I need to post more happy things here...

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